TV Eater

I've realized something. I watch TV. I mean, I somehow always say that I dont really watch TV, but that's not true. What's in my head when I say that is that I don't watch prime time television...shows that come on, me flipping channels and stuff. No. But I do clock some serious TV hours watching series on DVD. Right now I'm doing Angel. And while I'm watching TV, I always have to have some major carbs in front of me to stuff my face with. Let's face it, I can't get my TV on with a big salad in front of me. It's got to be the buttered bagels, the eggs, the meat, the chips and Snickers and coke, coke coke!!! And now that I know diet is unhealthy it's the regular coke! So...that's where a lot of my calories come from. Weird, I'm now realizing it.

Case in point, it's 7:10am. I had planned to go for a walk this morning and eat when I get back. Didn't feel all that hungry. Then I remembered that I'm in the middle of an episode I didn't finish watching last night. I thought about watching the episode instead and voila...mysterious hunger for buttered bagels with fried egg, cheese and turkey on it. And coke. I'm sitting here right now feeling it, smelling it as I type. It's not even really hunger pains...it's just me salivating while I think about it and the smell permeating my mind. My tongue wants it, but I'm not actually hungry hungry, you know?

So I figured I'd zoom on to the blog in an effort to stave off the attack. Had hoped to see B online, but she isn't. She's great for encouragement. Will I go for the walk? Or will I cave and watch the Angel with yumminess in front of me? I think the flesh is weak here, folks. Angel and food it is.

But what would happen if I reduced my caloric intake by 1000? I was going to start that today, too, coupled with the walking.

I'm just pathetic...where's the remote.

B is for Best Friend

I'm still trying to lose weight. I'm 104 kilos, down from 107 this summer. My girl B has included me most generally in her plan to also lose weight. We're supposed to be seeing how much we can lose in the next 8 weeks.

I'm glad she's including me because I need some encouragement to get started. Once I start losing tons of weight I think I'll be over the hump and it'll be easier. There's this book called The Healthy Liver and Bowel Book that I need to order pronto. It says that I should be eating lots of fruits and veggies for a healthy liver and I hardly ever eat either. So that's what I'll be doing. Hubby went and bought a whole bunch yesterday. The problem is he also baought lots of root beer, hot cheetos, BBQ corn chips and assorted other goodies. And the maid made brownies yesterday. It's soooo incredibly hard not to pick at those things! So hard.

I'm trying though. Really trying. More later, inshallah.